When you think about boudoir photography a plus size woman is not the image that comes to mind.
The ﬁrst image in most people‘s minds is a Victoria Secret model in the latest piece of lingerie. So, when Tara announced she was starting a Brand Ambassador Program, my ﬁrst thought was “Yeah right. You would never get accepted for something like that.“
I spent all day being my own personal hype man. I kept telling myself things like:
“ Who cares!?“
“Do it for you!“
“ Embrace your new mom bod!“
I ﬁnally decided to apply, I ﬁgured if you get it awesome, and if you don‘t at least you tried–then it happened, I got accepted!
Immediately a flood of emotions took over. I was excited, nervous, anxious, and scared. A part of being a Brand Ambassador was sharing these photos that would show every part of me.
All the “bad” parts. All the parts society has deemed as ugly. My mom belly, stretch marks, cellulite, double chin, dark circles under my eyes, back rolls. The list goes on and on.
Needless to say I was terriﬁed. The voices of my demons came creeping to the surface. I have always been a thick girl, the girl with big boobs and pretty hair. I suddenly had the overwhelming feeling to be a people pleaser.
The morning of my ﬁrst session, I made sure all the things I had control over were perfect. Which was really only my make up and my hair, haha! So much so, that I arrived at the studio 40 minutes early!
As I walked into the studio, I was trying to not be nervous. Honestly, I had knots in my stomach! Tara was so welcoming! She even went the extra mile, and touched up parts of my hair that had gone flat. That act alone let me know that she truly cared, and I knew I was in good hands.
Tara showed me how to do every single pose and how to position my hands, feet, and face! Her energy is so calming that I automatically had no fears!
I could not wait to see the magic she had created.
When I saw my images for the ﬁrst time I could not believe they were me! I looked beautiful “flaws” and all! I found a new conﬁdence I didn’t know I had. My sexiness shattered all the things about my body that society said
were ugly! My demons voices were silenced! I did not feel the need to be a people pleaser any longer.
I ﬁnally saw that I was sexy, and that boudoir has no size limit! I am equally as ravishing as any Victoria’s Secret model! In the words of Demi Lovato,”I’m a 10 out of 10, even when I forget!“